This past year marked a genuine paradigm shift for me. Not in the superficial sense of adding more credentials or outputs, but in the deeper work of clarifying my research voice, my pedagogic stance, and the relationship between my teaching, research, and supervision. I have come to understand more clearly how these three dimensions must cohere if the work is to be sustainable and meaningful. At the same time, I began to recognise what was no longer serving me, including cert

Lately, I have been reflecting quite a bit on my own research identity. Not the academic kind involving CV lines or publications, but the deeper question of what I actually care about in music and teaching. That process unexpectedly nudged me into this piece: a small attempt to articulate something I have sensed for years but rarely put into words. I have been sitting with a recurring realisation these past few years, something that shows up in teaching, performing, supervisi